We don’t think about the devil much.
Maybe it’s because we’ve been ruined by costumed children with red horns at Halloween. Or, maybe it’s because just like God, we can’t see Lucifer. Out of sight, out of mind. That kind of thing. Or, more likely: it’s because the thought of evil personified makes us all a little bit squeamish on the insides. Truly, the idea that there is an “enemy to our souls” is throttling.
It’s hard to envision an enemy that hasn’t been provoked. After all, what did we do? We didn’t rear end Satans car in traffic. We didn’t steal his parking place while shopping at Christmastime. We didn’t break his daughter’s heart, (I’m fairly sure he has no daughters), we didn’t loiter on his property. It’s difficult to understand, especially if you are the peace-maker type, why an entity would be your enemy without reason.
It’s good for us to remember, however, that there will be no peace in this area. Not with this man.
I’ve always been the type that didn’t understand why Satan would want to have anything to do with me. I was just me, minding my own business, loving God and trying to glorify Him in my sphere. I mean, I didn’t even rear end his car. It seemed fairytale-ish, childish even to blame freakout moments on “the devil”. If and when attacks from the enemy came, I would brush them off as something I ate, or stress, or a weakness on my part. I wouldn’t war against the enemy, because I was fairly sure the enemy was me.
Some of my heros in ministry, however, have taught me differently. John Eldredge writes emphatically that “we are at war.” And that there is an “enemy” who will stop at nothing to take the life that God has promised us. Beth Moore write that at different points in time attacks from the enemy were devastating, and would nearly cripple her with fear. Joyce Meyer speaks the same thoughts. Paul warns that our war is not against flesh and blood, but against the dark forces of this fallen world.
A few weeks ago I was up all night. Anxieties, nightmares, fears kept me up until sunrise. A week later it happened again. It was exhausting and frustrating, because I have learned a great deal about “taking thoughts captive” and so such chaotic thoughts seemed bizarre to me. It suddenly dawned on me that possibly it was an attack. Perhaps, in God’s kingdom I had moved from being on Satan’s radar to being a full fledged threat.
Spiritually speaking, I had rammed my car into the back of his. And he was pissed about it.
Over the last 4 months the ministry I pastor, FUEL has grown by leaps and bounds. Earlier this year, we saw our first salvations. A few weeks later, dozens of college and 20somethings “went public” with their faith in baptism. I was getting the opportunity to speak more, and God was moving throughout the church. God was giving me more responsibility, and I was taking it humbly and pursuing His glory in all of it.
John & Staci Eldredge, on the eve of their book launch “Love & War” experienced heavy spiritual attack from the enemy. Beth Moore, after completing her very first bible study was haunted by anxieties and nightmares for months. My ministry grows and God is moving and lives are changing and suddenly I am haunted by nightmares and wild thoughts and visions. Odd.
Satan’s attack, for me, suddenly became a back-handed compliment. I’m doing something right.
God’s moving, I get to be a part of it, Satan’s not happy.
Scripture tells us that at times God will allow Satan to “sift” us like wheat. Which honestly sounds terrible. And having experienced it I can say it is. But God also promises that what Satan intends for harm God will work out for our good, and for His own glory. Suddenly the attack isn’t scary, but validating. Not only that, but we can rest assured that God will turn the attack into something amazing. Something huge. Something victorious.
My hope is that people reading this take heart. If you are feeling pressed down, be encouraged. You have most likely moved from being on the radar to being a full-fledged threat. Be encouraged, you are doing something right. If you are feeling attacked, take rest in the knowledge that God will take what is meant for harm and turn it into glory. You’ll have stories to tell after this one.
May the God of all comfort speak encouragingly to you today. May you take up your sword in what is truly a war, and may God multiply your efforts and bring glory to His name through you. You’re a threat!